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I've made a mess.
He said "Where is your boy tonight? I hope he is a gentleman. And maybe he wont find out what I know. You were the last good thing about this part of town."
Lets hear it for heartache
Lets hear it for pain
Lets hear it for poisen tears that wash your dreams down the drain
Lets hear it for sleepless nights
Lets do it again
Pick your heart up off the floor
This is what you've been waiting for
Lets hear it for promises
Something you seal with a kiss
Lets hear it for big mistakes that you just couldn't resist
Lets hear it for jealousy
Lets hear it for hate
Lets hear it an apology before it's too late
Lets hear it for cigarettes
Baby you were great
Lets hear it for love!Current Mood:  lazy |
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It's going to be a good day. I can feel it.
Do you want to have a good day? Listen to Christmas music. DO IT!
Mario called me last night and it was lovely. I miss my Ohioans greatly.Current Mood: content |
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As of now I just want to go home. The four days off will be perfect. But right now I am stressing because I have two five page papers due the Monday and Tuesday after Thanksgiving. I wanted my vacation to be just that. But it wont. Because I have effing papers to write. And please don't say "Keeley why don't you write them now? Get it over with." I've started. I have writers block. Leave me alone.
Amanda is annoying the hell out of me. She's my best friend here, but man oh man. Breathe in breathe out girl.
I love my Puerto Rican. KATIE FYI: Nancy Drew and him are just friends as of now. We will see how that goes. Too bad Cheeto can't have Puerto Rican. Damn morals and values. Ex drug dealer? Pish posh.
I think Josh may have depression. I want to help him, but he is too stubborn for that. He's so mean when he's depressed. Here's some help: DON'T GO TO THE FRIGGIN ARMY.
I'm in such a bad mood. Earlier I cried a little bit. I was talking to my dad on the phone and felt horrible because I called a day late to wish him happy birthday. There was no good excuse for that. Just hearing his voice made me cry. I love school but I think homesickness may be hitting me late. I wish I knew exactly what was wrong. My mood swings are awful.
I don't feel like a good person here. At home I worked so hard to change my life and I truly succeeded. I was so happy and my life was exactly where it was suppose to be. My relationship with God was so strong and my friendships were the closest they have ever been. Granted I haven't changed much, but it's a struggle. It's like I'm treading water and my legs and arms are becoming very tired. SOS.Current Mood:  drained |
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I always feel like updating, but when I actually try to express my feelings they never come out right. I'm sitting here listening to Christmas music. I am obsessed. It may very well be a sickness. Everything about Christmas just makes me so....content...happy.
I can't wait until Thanksgiving. There are so many people I want and NEED to see, but so little time. Just the thought of family, friends, and a homecooked meal makes me want to explode.
Someone I'm pretty close to here has decided to go to the army. He will be leaving in January and will be gone for two years. For selfish reasons, I don't want him to go. Maybe he needs to go. Maybe it will be good for him. But his reasons for going are not substantial. He is scared and is practically begging for a reason to stay, he just wont admit it. We are starting over again. I'm not exactly sure if it is what I want. I miss him when I don't have him, but when I do...I feel it isn't quite right. But then again, we only have two months to figure it out. Does that mean we should ignore our feelings because we only have two months and get less hurt in the end? Or does that mean we should make the best of his time here and risk the chance of getting hurt in the end? I'm tired of thinking so much. I just want everything to fall into place. Why can't it be that easy?Current Mood:  confused |
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Your name of Keeley makes you very idealistic and generous, with the strong desire to uplift humanity leading you into situations where you can express your desire to serve others. You want to assume responsibilities and to look after people; however, you can become too involved in other people's problems and tend to worry. Your name gives you a natural desire to express along artistic and musical lines. You desire a settled home and family life, and are expressive and attentive to your loved ones. You must be careful not to become possessive and jealous of those close to you, however, as you could attract losses and unfortunate experiences. If you attach an ideal of service to your life, you could find great happiness and could express a very beautiful, happy, responsible, artistic, and generous nature. The weakness of this name is in worry, which in turn affects the nervous system, creating a tendency to be highly strung or over-sensitive to the thoughts of others.
How do you think they figure this stuff? Why does the majority of it seem accurate? I'd like to know. |
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My theory teacher played piano for about 20 minutes of class today. That 20 minutes made me completely appreciate getting up at 8:00 in the morning for that class. It's amazing what music can do.
Oct. 5th, 2004 @ 09:18 am
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Whoooooooooooo! My first test is officially over and done with. I think I did really well unless I made a lot of stupid mistakes which is very possible when it comes to theory. Now I have a quiz left and a paper to turn in and my Friday can begin! I'm rushing tonight, but I've decided not to join a sorority. I just want to meet new people during the rush weekend. Last night was my first MSBU (Music Business Student Union) meeting and I'm so excited. Basically it's a student run orginization that books concerts on campus, signs contracts, produces cds, etc. AWESOME. I'm also joining the Union Board which does more of the same thing except with a broader range of entertainment, not just music. So right now I'm a pretty happy girl. Joshua I wanted to see those pictures :( I miss you all. Love.
Sep. 10th, 2004 @ 08:51 am
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Mmmm watchin Dawson's Creek right now. I should be studying. Sometimes there is just too much time and I throw it away on stupid tv shows while eating Ritz Crackers. I get to see my dad tonight :) He is taking me out to dinner. I'm excited. Last time I saw a familiar face (Christina) I cried. I love college, but I wish all my friends could be in the same place. Anyway...I have more to write but I'm just not in the mood. I'm not sure why I started this post. I think it was because I saw that Katie posted and I got all excited. But that faded quickly. Ok I'm going to practice piano. Which I SUCK AT by the way. Love.
Sep. 8th, 2004 @ 10:26 am
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I'm finally updating! I got my internet all set up...BY MYSELF I might add. College is going well. I had my first class today and now I have about 2 hours to relax. I'm really happy orientation is over with. It got really old really fast, but I guess it did help me to meet new people. I met a boy :) I'm not going to get too excited too quick, but I'm happy about things for the time being. He is a non drinking, non smoking, funny, goodlooking, Christian boy. The girls I've met here are really nice too. But I think everyone is overly nice during orientation because everyone is seeking new friends. There are two girls that I hang out with on a regular basis and we get along really well. But I have to admit, it's not the same as my friends back home. I know it takes time, but I'm still searching for that really tight bond. I miss and love you all.
Aug. 30th, 2004 @ 09:49 am
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People are unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered.
Love them anyway.
If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.
Do good anyway.
If you are successful, you win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.
The good you do will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spent years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.
People really need help but may attack you if you help them,
Help people anyway.
Give the world the best you have and you'll get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you've got anyway.
Aug. 24th, 2004 @ 01:38 pm
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I don't want to fall to peices.
I just want to sit and stare at you.
I don't want to talk about it.
And I don't want a conversation,
I just want to cry infront of you.
I don't want to talk about it.
I'm so sad. I'm so grateful. I'm so exhausted. I'm so anxious. I'm so scared. I'm so excited. I'm so emotional. I'm so oblivious.
I want to cry. I need to laugh. I want time. I need patience. I want comfort. I need strength.
It wont end, until my life begins.
Aug. 18th, 2004 @ 06:05 pm
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This is my livejournal goodbye. My dad keeps insisting that all of our computer problems/viruses are generated here. Though I still don't see how this makes sense I have to abide by his wishes. I'm not even supposed to be updating right now and if he's right we will probably get another virus because of this and I'll be in a lot of trouble. But going on the chance that he doesn't know what he's talking about I'm saying goodbye. I'll probably still read livejournal but I just wont update or comment. So long...farewell...
Aug. 12th, 2004 @ 03:37 pm
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I haven't cried or laughed that hard in a long time. Who would have thought both would happen at the same time? Katie's shoulder was soaked, but that's what friends are for. I love her so much.
Please pray for me, the team, and the canidates of this TEC weekend. Thank you and I hope to see a lot of you there. BE THERE! Please?
Aug. 6th, 2004 @ 11:53 am
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This is enough to make anyone feel good. I promise. Take a few moments to think about each one before moving onto the next.
1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the Super Wal-Mart.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels out of the dryer.
11. Finding the sweater you want is on sale
for half price.
12. Chocolate milkshake. (or vanilla!)
13. A long distance phone call.
14. A bubble bath.
15. Giggling.
16. A good conversation.
17. The beach.
18. Finding a $20 bill in your coat from last winter.
19. Laughing at yourself.
20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
21. Running through sprinklers.
22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
23. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
24. Laughing at an inside joke.
25. Friends.
26. Accidentally overhearing someone say
something nice about you.
27. Waking up and realizing you still have a
few hours left to sleep.
28. Your first kiss.
29. Making new friends or spending time with
old ones.
30. Playing with a new puppy.
31. Having someone play with your hair.
32. Sweet dreams.
33. Hot chocolate.
34. Road trips with friends.
35. Swinging on swings.
36. Wrapping presents under the Christmas
tree.
37. Song lyrics printed inside your new CD
so you can sing along without feeling stupid.
38. Going to a really good concert.
39. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
40. Winning a really competitive game.
41. Making chocolate chip cookies.
42. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
43. Spending time with close friends.
44. Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from
your friends.
45. Holding hands with someone you care about.
46. Running into an old friend and realizing that
some things (good or bad) never change.
47. Riding the best roller coasters over and over.
48. Watching the expression on someone's face as
they open a much desired present from you.
49. Watching the sunrise.
50. Getting out of bed every morning and thanking
God for another beautiful day.
Aug. 5th, 2004 @ 02:11 pm
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So first of all I got to wake up today at 11 (very late for me) and I got to lay their just thinking about all the possibilities this day may hold. BECAUSE I HAVE NOTHING TO DO. And it's so wonderful.
About a half an hour later I hear a tap on my bedroom door and my mom walks in and says "Keeley I have a present for you." She brought me coffee from Borders made especially how I like it and a cinnamon scone, my favorite. Now this is wonderful in itself but let me recap. Yesterday I woke up and she said "Sorry hunny, but were out of coffee." I was in a horribly bad mood and made a huge scene about how I needed my coffee and made her feel like it was her fault that there was no coffee in the house. I was so mean and she turns around and buys me coffee this morning. Now that's love folks. I thought it was worthy of a post. I love my mom. Don't ever take your mothers for granted!
Aug. 5th, 2004 @ 11:44 am
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Today was wonderfully perfect. I don't think I would change a thing.
I am one very lucky girl. And all of you are connected to me somehow making you a little bit lucky too :)
I love you.
Aug. 5th, 2004 @ 12:44 am
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I was dreading work this morning. It was like the kind of school day where you do anything in your power to find an excuse or ways to get out of it. But luck found me and Jen decided to work the last couple hours of my shift.
I used those few extra hours to their fullest. I took a three hour nap. I've been so tired lately, I don't know what is wrong with me.
Tonight was alright. It was good to meet new people but I felt out of place. I was the only white person in the room of 10 people. I guess it made me realize how Kaylan feels 90% of the time. These people were so funny, but I couldn't really add anything to the conversation. I was simply their personal laugh track.
So Kaylan and I were you know having regular conversation eating our Brownie Batter Blizzards and I started tearing up. Then the tears welled over the brim. I have to say goodbye to my best friend of 6 years in two weeks. TWO FRIGGIN WEEKS. I just can't comprehend.
Tomorrow is my last day at good 'ol Lonestar. It will be a bitter sweet goodbye. So many goodbyes this month. Man oh man.
Aug. 4th, 2004 @ 12:01 am
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and it's not you, it's me
and it's not us, it's them
and it's not her, it's just the way she moves you
and she kisses harder than me
well she kisses harder than me
And I've always looked in through your glasses,
but all i could see is the spector of me reflected
Aug. 3rd, 2004 @ 12:00 am
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The opportunity has been passed up. Fear froze me. It always happens. And then I dwell. Why can't I allow myself to be vulnerable? I'm fragile, I am. But maybe I simply imagined it all in the first place. I hope that isn't the truth.
Thanks Jo for chattin with me. This post only makes sense to you and your the one who used to complain about my posts never making sense.
Aug. 2nd, 2004 @ 02:38 am
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I'm drinking black coffee right now. I usually drink coffee every morning with cream and sugar. But Ann said if you drink it black for a week, you'll never go back. Haha if you go black you'll never go back. So I'm trying to accomplish that. I'm not really sure what the benefits are to drinking black coffee opposed to drinking coffee with cream and sugar. Maybe less calories (not that I care at all)? Maybe just quicker in general? Oh and you wont have to reheat it when the cream makes it cold. Black coffee really is better than I expected. I need to be up! I need to be up now! I have to go to work :(
Aug. 1st, 2004 @ 09:38 am
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